(((((((((((((((Janica))))))))))))))))) I love you!   Please don't worry with getting caught up on my entries..It's all in a letter to you!

 I don't have the time to read this now- But promise that I will read this and write you a letter tonight or this weekend!

   wanted to let you know that I probably won't be online this weekend...So DON'T worry!

    I love you tons!,

          Jewel

Janica,

Have a good day tomorrow.

Chad

Glad the level thing is helping Trin. Good for you for sticking with it and NOT giving in. She must've been angry when she was knocked down.

That's SO good Steph has so many positive goals. Good for her! Hope she passes the surprise drug test!

YAY for being stable! I didn't know you had ADHD. That must be hard to deal with, especially being bipolar. Wow, I couldn't imagine being ADHD IN A MANIC episode! Random thought, I know.

Good luck with therapy!!! That's good you're excited about it.

RYN: THANK YOU for your understanding, love, and support. I AM feeling better now, MUCH. I'm happy! (not manic)

THANK YOU for offering to let me e-mail you. That's so nice of you.

Take care. Much love,

- Chris

Wow, I'm sorry about the fight, they sould've woke you guys to help.

I'm glad the Plowing Bee was fun! YAY for no infections! lol, but really, I'm glad.

Hope your girls have good first days of school! Well, AND the whole school year...

Take care, much love,

- Chris

Glad you enjoyed the last big weekend!   I love those big potlucks!  We have them at church all the time!

The big fair nd plowing matches all take place this coming week.  I really hate to miss them. I used to enter a lot of garden things in the fair.  Mostly go to watch the Belgium horses now.  And EAT!

My daughter started her Senior year also.  And I know it will go by fast.  She want to go on to be a nurse.  She goes to a vocational school in the morning where she is earning her CNA.

So happy you haven't had any complications from your surgery!!!

Have a great Wednesday!

Lots of love,

Liz

(((((((((((((((((((Janica))))))))))))))) So sorry that happened!

  Glad that you had fun!

 Love you tons!,

      Jewel

(((((((((((((((SisterJanica)))))))))) Thank YOU sooooo much for your note, your love and your concern...I did check in on you this weekend to see if you had updated..and spent some time writing to you daily! You're always close to heart!

    I was feeling sad about the way things are with Jess...Plus my hormones were out of whack as I am going through the change of life.

    I just didn't feel up to being online.

    I am feeling a bit better today..Praises be to God!

  Have alot of cleaning to do today..will be talking to my aunt...will read a bit and write a few letters.

   So how are you?  What's new with the girls?  Is Step starting to feel any better due to her meds? How is Trins behavior?  How's school?  How's Daniel? 

    Drop me a note when time allows.

   Know that I LOVE YOU TONS!,

               Jewel

Good luck, Janica!!! Have I ever told you I like your name. Not one you hear of often, well, I haven't heard it at all, but I like it.

RYN: Thanks for the note, glad you haven't had any ups or downs in the last few days!

How's Trin and Steph?

Yeah, I haven't heard from Jewel either, I'm worried. Hopefully she'll update later today. I've been praying for her too. I really hope she's okay.

I plan on telling Ma about Colleen on Wed if Colleen hasn't yet. Well, take care! Love,

- Chris

[MsChrispy]

HAPPY LABOR DAY TO YOU TOO! Take care,

- Chris

(((((((((((((((((((SisterJanica))))))))))))) I am feeling much better today- thank You for asking and caring and praying on my behalf!

 I read your last entry and LOVE that woman...she is just what you and Trin needs! She has such good guidance on how to best handle this matter! Go God for bringing her into your life...PLEASE keep me posted closely on this matter..You know how very much you and your family mean to me!

   Sorry about your computer!  Glad that you are still able to get on!~

    Sounds like a fun time...I pray that it will be filled with Blessings!

    Have a Blessed weekend!

    Love you tons!,

             Jewel

I hope you get the computer fixed soon... I know how aggravating it is... sorry...

I like the shirt.... my neighbor has one that says "Jesus made me Kosher"....lol...

It's really intense, but it sounds like it'll be good for her and you all. I hope it works out, STAY strong! And don't give in! Take care,

- Chris

I am so sorry to hear about all of this!   I agree she needs to find somebody that can help her.  It upsets your whole family. And thats not fair.    My heart goes out to you!

All I can do is send my love and prayers to all of you!

Lisa

Awww dear Janica I am so sorry to read this.  You are doing the right thing by getting her more intensive help.  My heart goes out to you and your whole family, this must be most difficult.  Kids are dramatic...but this alos may be a cry out for help. 

Thank you for your sweet note and comment and thinking of me. 

Holding you and your family in my heart and prayers...

With love...M

Oh, I forgot about the comments... sorry. RYNs: Yeah, I'm sure I'll eventually get sick of wanting to be manic, I'll get sick of the crashes that come with it, but I haven't gotten there yet. Thank you about the poem. Yeah, I thought the pic was funny...

I'll be 18 in Jan. I'm going to tell my Ma about Colleen. I hope it goes well. Thanks for the advice about my mentor! I'll do that. I'm going to take my meds tonight I think cause we're going to Cedar Point tomorrow and I don't want to crash or be too hyper there. Well take care,

- Chris

Oh, I'm sorry all this happened. I know I get like that when I'm in an episode... is she bipolar, just curious. I think intensive treatment will help her too. I hope it works out... I really do. I'm praying for you AND you familiy. Love,

- Chris

(((((((((((((Sister Janica)))))))))) I am sooooooo very sorry to read this news..I soooooooooooooooo agree that Trin needs intensive treatment! 

  I 'm just so sorry that you and your family are going through this..feel really helpless because all that I can do is to write and pray!

   I am doing both!

 KNOW that I AM HERE and that I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY!,

                     Jewel

oh Janica ((((((((((((heart hugs)))))

as someone going getting ready to be a social worker i can tell you....

it's okay to send her somewhere like this. it's for her own good and the well being of her family. i rather she goes somewhere like a girls home than in ten years the jail system. I know it's hard to send your baby off but being a parent is sometimes making hard decisions for your child that they may not understand. I strongly recommend not telling steph what your thinking because...well...do you think she'll run away.

You are a good parent for seeing she needs more help than what she has, you are a good parent for thinking of not only what Steph needs but Trin too. It is good your thinking of how this affects Steph. You need to do whats best for your family in every aspect.

as a friend just know i'm sending love and huggs your way

and keep us updated

There was so much good news here! You sound so good too!

Wow, I'm glad school went so well!

That's good Steph is taking her meds. I used to be on Klonopin too... I didn't really give it a good try, so I wanted to go back on it, but my doctor wouldn't let me cause it's so addicting. I hope she passes the drug test!

YAY for your mother being cancer free!

Take care, you have a great day too!

- Chris

Janica,

I'm glad your first day of school went well and also that Steph and Trinity are doing well. Take care.

Chad

((((((((((((Sister Janica)))))))))) YAY YAY YAY for all of this GOOD NEWS!

  Of course you would have friends who would miss you and be looking for you! You are that type of person! I am VERY BLESSED to have you as a Friend and Sister- I thank God for you every day..And when you are gone- I LOOK FOR YOU!LOL

    Did you check that clonazapam to make sure that it's not addictive? 

   I'm so very grateful that Steph is taking her meds and moving forward in her recovery! Praises be to God for catching this early on! Praises be to you for doing something about it!

  Sorry about the weight gain- Darn Zyprexa...Glad that are staying on top of it..I was oblivious and gained 60 pounds on it!

     Have a Blessed day!

 AND KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU DEARLY!,

                Jewel

Janica,

I'm glad everything is going well for you and yours. Take care.

Chad

(((((((((((((SisterJanica)))))))))))) I received your letter today! YAY to the Heavens!

 Thank YOU so much for writing...Made my day!

  Plan on reading it this afternoon after I finish the ton of cleaning that I have to do...I will be writing back!

  I mailed you out a letter this morning too!

  Let me hear from you today- let me know how you are and how the first day of school went!

 KNOW that I love you tons!,

        Jewel

[Jeweliet]

good luck with school and i'm saying a prayer for you

this is what we wanted..you to start school in the fall

i'm a lil nervous about my first day too but just remember you've did the first thing several times before and before the week is out you'll(me too)be back in the swing of things

eat more fruits and veggies and hopefully that will work. maybe walking at the track that will take pounds off and a good stress reliever

Ugh, I HATE it when the computer crashes! I feel your pain, lol

I hope Steph gets the job! I'll say a prayer for her. Glad Trin is doing better!

I hope you talk to the doc about the Zyprexa soon! I know they have other meds to counteract the side effect of the weight gain. Maybe you could ask about what I'm on for that, Topamax. It really helps me with the weight gain, not that I'm on Zyprexa, I wouldn't let the doc put me on that....

You have a blessed Sunday too! Take care,

- Chris

((((((((((((((((((SisterJanica)))))))))))))) Thank YOU soooooo much for the beautiful note! I've been so very concerned about you and am thrilled to have heard from you ! YAY to the Heavens!

   I can't wait to get your letter! I've been writing one to you as well that spans several days! 

    Thank YOU for thinking of me yesterday and for sending up a special prayer! Thank YOU for wanting to call..I pray that you ALWAYS feel free to call!

  I thought strongly about calling you yesterday to check in on you...But remember what you said about not feeling like talking and needing some time to sort through things..so I respected that.

  I just hope and pray that you know that you don't have to go through ANYTHING alone!

  I'm so glad to get news of the girls! Sounds like they are both making major improvements! I Praise God for that- for answering our prayers!

   I'll be adding some to your letter today!

  Know that you are always in my thoughts and in my prayers!,

                         Jewel

Sounds like a busy time around your house!   Bummer about those meds!  Glad that the medical stuff is healing properly.

I think about all you have on your plate, two teenage girls, you starting school, taking care of the hubby and the house, yikes.  My biggest worry is making sure the cooler has cold beer when the men get home.

You go girl!

Lots of love,

Lisa

(((((((((((((((((SisterJanica))))))))))))) Hugs of comfort and healing!

    I suspected that you were having problems due to not hearing from you...I'm so sorry that you are still going through this..I appreciate your letting us know.

     I've been praying hard and often for your stability.  God WILL get you through this to an even better place! Count on it!

    I read this entry yesterday and wrote you a letter in response...It will be a long letter- spanning several days as I am trying to save on my stamps and use them wisely. I will finish it up and mail it out today...Love is on the way DearOne!

   I'm still here if you ever want to email or call.

    Todays Plans: I will probably speak to my aunt at 11 and then clean, clean, clean...Wayne is sooooo messy!

   He had work today...Praises be to God- we can always use the money.

    Update soon or email and let us know how you are today.

    I'm sending you MUCH LOVE,

              Jewel

That sucks about the side effects. Maybe they'll start to go away after a while??? Luckily my meds don't cause me much side effects...

Maybe seeing your therapist more often will help.

Good luck with classes!

RYN: I did start my meds again (I crashed pretty hard, but I'm better now). Thank you for offering to talk to me through e-mail and for your support and love. That's SO kind of you!

Love,

- Chris

((((((((((((((((((DearOne))))))))))) You are a WONDERFUL FRIEND AND SISTER!  I love you and am in the process of writing you a letter- will respond to this entry there as I don't have much time online today.

   I've missed you and I love you!,

              Jewel

Hi Janica...I am sorry your daughters are such a handful right now!!!  I wish I had wirds of wisdom for you but I don't have any kids and I am at a loss of what to say.

((((((((Janica)))))))

Love you...M

That's cool you got your books. What are you studying? I'm excited for school too...

Glad they had a good time at their dad's. Cleaning is a pain... good luck with that!

Take care,

- Chris

Hi Janica...Glad to hear you have your books and are once again heading back to school!!!  Good for you!

You know I heard something the other day and wrote about it in my diary and I am trying it on and that is do not pay attention to anything a man says...just what he does.  I know it sounds crazy and as adults we should be able to communicate but I believe their is alot of truth in this statement especially when they are very upset as can sometimes happen.  Anyway that is what came to mind when I read your diary today.

Glad you hear your moods are better too!

With love...M

I'm glad Trin's going to be getting a therapist again. Maybe that'll be better than the group home???

YAY, I'm happy your moods are leveling out.

You have a good day too!

- Chris

RYN: Thanks for explaining that to me. It's kinda like how I take Topamax to keep me from gaining weight from my Abilify and Lithuim...... I understand why you wouldn't like Zyprexa!

 This entry is kinda funny... But I'm so glad you feel happy today! We both woke up in good moods today.

RYN: Thank you for the note. What is metformin for? I hope you do try something different cause Zyprexa will make you GAIN and GAIN and GAIN!!!!!! Sorry that's so negative, but it's true, well, at least for me and a few others I know, including someone very close to us. Take care,

-Chris

(((((((((((((((SisterJanica)))))))))))) YAY to the Heavens for this entry! I am sooooooo very uplifted that you are feeling better!  An answer to our heartfelt prayers!

  Thank YOU soooo much for the note...and for always being there for me!  Thank YOU for reminding me of what I did do for mom.  I still could have done more..I think that I have learned a very valuable less from it.

    I definately need my abilify or something in it's place...whoa what a crash it was...But I AM feeling better in this moment..I thank God for that.

    Thank You so much for the email yesterday..I have been so happy about your mom's miracle!  God has again heard our prayers and answered!

     My day will be spent as it usually is...Cleaning, reading and writing letters! Thank YOU for planning to send me the stamps! That means the world to me as I LOVE being able to write to you! It's an important part of my sanity and recovery!

   Know that I am always here, that I love you dearly, that I thank God for you!

     Much Love and Many Prayers,

               Jewel

  That's a great plan, and I use it often.

I appreciate the offer on the laptop, but I just don't have much luck with typing on them....so I'll be looking for a desktop computer and keyboard. Thanks for thinking of me though, that was very nice of you. But it's what friends do for each other!

You take care Janica, and you have a great Thursday! See you later, Michael.

YAY Trin!!!!!  I love you!

I saw my med doc today too. I'm glad Steph's gonna get something to help with her insomnia....

That's funny what happened at apple bees!

You sound SOOOO much better! I'm really glad!

Take care,

- Chris

Insomnia... *UGG*  Poor Steph.  I hope they find something that works for her with minimal side effects.  Lack of sleep truly does play a major role in our disposition.  You're a sweetie Janica.  The idea of you getting "assaulted" by straws of soda and paper wads and such made me giggle.

Have a blessed day dear friend!

Maybe she'll start acting better after this. I think it's a good decicion.... Like you said, it'll be good for her. I hope you're doing okay. Take care,

- Chris

Wow what a tough spot to be in.  I think you did the right thing by calling the police.  She has to know you will follow thru on your threats, if she trys to run away.   What a hard headed kid.   Reminds me of myself at that age.   I knew everything, and nobody could tell me different.      I feel so bad now for all of the hell I put my parents thru.

I can understand how your moods must be right now.   I sure will be thinking about you!

Lots of love,

Liz

This too shall pass... You'll feel better soon! Like the two under me said, hang in there, you're doing so good! I like that you're trying to stay positive despite the stress in your life. Take care.

- Chris

(((((((((((((((((((Janica))))))))))))) I'm so sad and sorry to read this news!  I will be changing my prayers for Trin!

   I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this now- it's the last thing that you need!

  You did the right thing by call the police..she needs to know this us unacceptable and will NOT be tolerated- it's for her own good.

   You're doing a GREAT Job and I love you!

    You don't have to worry about Wayne getting mad about me getting calls..My aunt calls near daily!   If we are in the middle of something, I will tell you and trust that you will understand.

    He's home today and we have an appointment this afternoon with the lawyer...explained about it in my letter..

   Know that I love you ALL,

         Jewel

P.S. Let me know how YOU are holding up!

Sorry sweetie when it comes to kids I am at a loss...

Thank you for being such a kind and caring person...

With love...M

Wow, I wish I had some advice for you with Trin's situation, but I don't... I can't think of anything...I'm sorry and I'm sorry that happened. Sounds like a crazy night.... How are YOU doing?

((((((((((((((((((Janica)))))))))))))))))))) I only have a moment online as we are expecting a call...But I HAD to come on to check on you- I am sooooo grateful that you are feeling better! YAY to the Heavens!

  I'm so grateful that Stephs appointments are coming up...I know this is the path that she is meant to be on! 

    I'll be writing soon!

    I love you tons!,

         Jewel

YAY! I'm so glad you're feeling better! Ohhhhhhhhhh..... I was on Zyprexa once, made me gain like CRAZY!!! You have a puppy?

You love us all??? Hehe, well, I love you too! lol Take care. TTYL,

- Chris

Do you know why you feel foggy and restless....? I'm curious.

Aw, she found a baby bird? Well, I'm glad it's still alive!

I said a prayer for you. I really hope you feel better.

Take care,

- Chris

(((((((((((((((((((Janica))))))))))))))) I love you and am glad to see an update from you! I wrote you a letter yesterday- a long one. You were soooooooo strongly on my mind..I had hoped that you might call.

    Be safe on your trip and know that I am thinking of you and sending you much LOVE!  Praying for you several times a day.

    Talk to you soon!,

          Jewel

P.S. Update later -I will be checking in on you!

My Dear Precious Sister,

  Thank YOU for keeping us posted on how you are! I wish that I could afford to call and cheer you up or atleast comfort you! But you know that you can call me ANYTIME!

   Major heart hugs! I assure you that you WILL be feeling better soon!

   I'm so sorry for your tears...am writing you a letter!

  I love you tons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,

             Jewel

So sorry to hear those meds are messing you up.  Hopefully they get them fine tuned for you, and you can get back to your old self.

I am sure your family would like nothing more than to give you a big hug! 

My girlfriend that has the daughter going thru all of this is battling the same thing with her meds.  Trying to find the right dosage.  She just kinda walks around in a fog.

I hope your weekend gets better for you!

Lots of love ,

Liz

Dear Sister Janica,

  You have been so strongly in my thoughts and prayers through the days and nights that you've been ill...I have two letters here for you- Because I had to write to let you know how VERY MUCH I LOVE YOU!

    Hoping to hear from you soon...and I want to know how YOU really are!!!!!!!!

     I may not be online much this weekend...But will try to get on to check on you! REMEMBER that you are free to call me at anytime!

    Love to you and our family!,

                  Jewel

((((((((((((((((Janica)))))))) Thank YOU sooooo much for thinking of me and taking the time to leave me that beautiful and moving poem! It meant sooooooo very much to me!

  I'm so glad to see an update from you!  Thank God that your med-doc is on top of things! 

  I'm on lamictal -for me it's been a life-saver....But I also take zoloft, abilify and risperdal plue the camprol for the alcohol cravings. 

    Please update again tomorrow and let us know how you are!

   Sooooo Much Loooooooove!,

            Jewel

i hope the new meds bring you relief.  sometimes it's so hard to balance things out, and many different ones need to be tried.  it's a bit of a roller-coaster in the meantime. 

prayers to you janica.

RYN: I'm on Cogentin too. I'm on it for a different reason. One time when I first got put on Lithium my muscles stiffented to EXTREMES. My head tilted back and stayed. My arms went out and painfully twisted inward and STAYED. I couldn't control my muscles.  They gave me tons of Bendril (sp?), but nothing helped until they gave me the Cogentin and they didn't want to take me off the Lithium, so I've been on the Cogentin ever since. It was AWFUL!

Topamax is for headaches (when I was on it, I was having constant migraines, but it didn't help at ALL). But it's also used as a mood stabilizer (I was on it once for that, but it did NOTHING for me). It's also used to help weight gain which is why I'm on it now.

You're welcome. I love Jewel and I love writing to her!

My highest score when I bowled the other day was exactly 100. I think I improved a little... Yeah, it is fun! Thanks for the e-mail. Mine's s1mpl33chris@aol.com. Thank you for the note!

You have a good one too. Take care!

- Chris

((((((((((((((((((((((((9Janica)))))))))))))) Thank YOU so much for the note and the honest sharing!

   I'm sooooooo very grateful that you have an appointment with the med-doc today..Please be sure to let me know how that goes...You ARE on the road to feeling better soon...I PROMISE! yes, Dearone, This too shall pass and you will feel even better than you did before! I PROMISE! It's just a matter of time...Keep riding it out...You are doing a great Job in letting us be there for you and at sharing the reality of where you are...You are doing things that are so very important to your recovery and to us!  I'm proud of you.

  I am aware that you are also going through ALOT emotionally dealing with things with the girls...Know that I am here and we WILL find our way together!

  Please don't worry about not being able to write...You have a full and busy life and that is the Life that God has intended for you!  Writing to you IS  a GREAT Blessing to ME! It helps me to reflect upon things and to share my heart! It keeps me from shutting down...It makes me feel as though we are face to face having a chat...I know that you pray for me faithfully and love me dearly- those are the important things.

  PLEASE let us hear from you later today.

  KNOW that my love and prayers are with you always,

                 Jewel

((((((((((((((((SisterJanica))))))))))))) Just a note to let you know that I am thinking of you and sending you MUCH LOVE...I hope to hear from you today..Please do let me know how you REALLY are...It's important to me...You're important to me!

   I love you tons!,

         Jewel

  ****Janica****

You made it thru your 1st year of class even while dealing with so many health issues, daughter issues, husband issues, financial issues; you're going to be just fine this 2nd year...that's a guarantee!
  I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling a little bit down right now, but I know you're harder on yourself than you should be. Looking from the outside in I can tell you that you're not as messed up as you feel....you're a lot more of an inspiration than you think.
  Prayers sent for your hubby's peace of mind and spirit, and for that daughter of yours to see the mistakes she makes before she makes them......take care dear sister, and I'll see you later. Michael

I have felt that feeling before, but mine was the manic kind....

I'm sorry you feel so down.

You are definitely in my prayers. I truely hope you feel better soon.

The Geodon did NOTHING for me too.

This Too Shall Pass. It always does.

Take care!

- Chris

Dear Sister Janica,

  THANK YOU sooooo much for the note back! Hearing from you always blesses me sooooooo richly! 

   What you wrote made PERFECT sense to me as I have been going through the very same thing with Jess...God is helping me to adjust and He will help you to do the same...But it is a painful process while we are in it!  No way around that!  Know that I am here to understand.

    Thank YOU for planning to send me some stamps.  Writing to you is sooooooo veyr important to me! It keeps me feeling sooooo very close to you! Just a letter away!

     I'm doing good today...Wayne has been on his best behavior the past few days..that's helped alot...Still very uncertain about the future..But am trusting that God WILL guide me ONE STEP AT A TIME..I don't have to figure it all out on my own...Have been considering going to a shelter if need be. 

  Your prayers for me are PERFECT! The Holy spirit and your heart are guiding you in what to pray!

  I'm soooo glad to read that you and Steph got to spend some good and loving time together! YAY to the Heavens!

   CALL ANYTIME YOU FEEL LIKE TALKING! 

   I love you tons!,

        Jewel

Oh My Precious Sister,

   How veeeeeeeeery much I love you - How hard and often I have been praying for you!  KNOW that this will soon pass and you WILL come out at an even better place! I PROMISE!

    I'm so sorry to read about Trin and the upset that must have caused you...I will start praying over this issue! 

 I will be so grateful when Steph starts her meds and they start working!  She IS on the right path- I feel it in my spirit!  God has led her to this place and will create good out of it!

    Thank YOU for being so honets with us about how you are- knowing IS Important to me!

   Thank YOU for wanting to send me stamps...But I DO NOT want to add to your financial burden!   I love writing to you...You are soooooooo very important to me.

   God will help you with the schooling...Remember how anxious you were when you first started and you have done GREAT!  I know that you WILL continue to do so...I have complete faith in you and Him- You make a GREAT team!

    KNOW that you can call me ANYTIME! I'll do my best to cheer you up!

    KNOW how very MUCH I love you!,

               Jewel

(((((((Janica)))))))

I hope you feel better emotionally very soon...and yes I have felt detached from myself before...

Keeping you in my thought and prayers....

Love you...M

((((((((((((((((((((((9SisterJanica)))))))))))))))))))  I'm so sorry to hear that you too are having to learn to dance in the rain!  We can dance together!

    I'm hoping that this side-effect will soon pass..Did the doctor say that it will in time?  

    I'm am relieved that we have found out what is going on with steph and that she will be getting proper meds...I am not surprised at all...I really felt in my spirit that a big part of her drugging was due to self-medicating.   The Meds will help her to have a better shot at staying clean!  You are a GREAT mom to have dealt with this all so lovingly and effectively ! 

     Trin is growing up so fast...I will start praying over her driving and safety!

    I wrote you a letter today- will mail it WHEN I get some stamps.

    I wanted to call but was afraid that you might not feel like talking and that you might feel intruded upon.

   KNOW that I love you dearly and I am here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,

   CALL ME if you want to talk. 

      I love you tons!,

            Jewel

RYN: I was on Geodon once. I was manic and it did NOTHING for me considering I was still completely manic when I was on it.

"I find doctors (most all of them anyways) to be condescending and rude, cold and short with me... ALL the time... Its like " OH heres that lady with all the mental issues again..."I could be there for a sinus infection and my doctor will ask me about my mental health... as if there is a connection between my bipolar and my sinus infection  DUH!!!" Wow! That's exactly how I feel!

Yes, the HPV shot did hurt worse than most shots... and they had to watch me afterwards cause they said some people get really dizzy. I didn't though. TTYL,

- Chris

What med are you taking??? I remember feeling that way when I was manic.... all disconnected from everything around me.

I hope a mood stabilizer helps Steph.

LOL! Trin can't ride a bike right, but she's learning to drive!

I'm glad you're healing and your stomache doesn't hurta anymore! Take care,

- Chris

(((((((Janica)))))))

Glad you are feeling physically better...Praise God and thank You Jesus!

I love butterflies too, it seems like they are bigger this year here in Michigan.

Have a wonderful day,

With love>>>M

  So good to hear that your surgery was a success, and that you're feeling so much better now. You were dealing with that for such a long time......it's good to know you're thru the worst of it my friend.

  Sorry I haven't been visiting as often, but work just isn't allowing the time....go figure. One of these days I'm going to have the money for a computer and internet at home.......hopefully sooner than later.

  Take care Janica, and I'll see you soon. Michael

Janica,

Thank you for the lovely comments (as always).  It warmed my heart  to have someone say that I am on the right track to being a good mother, and that I'm actually doing something right...  Confirmation of that is a good thing considering I am a first-time Mommy.  Though I have taken care of many infants, it is an entirely different ballgame when it's your own.  Thank you for taking to time to let me know I am doing right by little Raeanna.  She is learning to LOVE the lotion time, so I think that idea might have been a good one too.  It's killing 2 birds with one stone (so to speak).  Her skin was starting to dry out a little, and it helps her differentiate between daytime napping (after feeds) and nighttime BEDTIME.  It helps keep my and David's hands nice and soft for handling her too!  I think David likes itbecause it's something that he can do to help me take care of her.  He's a diamond in the rough...  He is so eager to help out and take care of her.  I think she's a lucky girl to have a father who's so interested in her (and I don't think it will just wear off when she stops being "new").  

Someday I hope that you can make the trip and come visit our family!  I was so bummed about the MDD michigan get-together falling through...  But I know no matter what happens we will meet each other someday (whether here or in God's perfect kingdom).  You are a blessing to me and my family Janica, just know that you are often in my thoughts and prayers.  *BIG HUGS*  and I mean that!

Wendy

My Dear Precious Sister,

  Your note made me tearyw ith heart touched tears.. I love you sooooo very much too!

    You ARE doing a GREAT Job at being there for me...the prayers are perfect and what I really need! 

  I know that you are with me...that you are on my side/by my side.  It means the world to me and strengthens me. 

 I am trying my best to follow God one step at a time and trusting that HE WILL get me to where He would have me to be.

   I have to go now- as I am expecting a call.

   KNOW that I send you MUCH LOVE AND APPRECIATION!,

                           Jewel

Dear Sister Janica,

  Thank YOU for the beautiful and love- filled note! 

   Sorry to read that it's so dark there!

   Glad that Trin is coming to spend time with you!

  Thank YOU for sharing with me about you and Steph...It's such a blessing that she can face her own mistakes and forgive you yours! YAY God! YAY Steph!  You two seem to be getting even closer! YAY to the Heavens!

    As for calling- thank YOU for being so thoughtful of me and for wanting to protect me...You call anytime that you need to talk.

   If you are just calling to chat - I do prefer that you call when Wayne is gone- so that I can talk freely about what's been going on.  But call anytime! I'll let you know if he's here.

    You seem to be feeling better..I am soooo grateful for that!

     My therapy appointment went well...I had alot to discuss. I did get some information about shelters while I was there. 

     Know that I send you MUCH LOVE and GRATITUDE!

    Praying that your day is FILLED with BLESSINGS!

    Much Love always,

          Jewel

Janica,

I hope your recovery is going well. Take care.

Chad

the karaoke contest was at Applebees?  Man, ours does not do cool stuff like that.  I love karaoke!  I'm glad to hear that you are taking it easy!  Hope the rest of the day went well at work and that you're not to sore or stiff!

*hugs*

So glad to hear things are going well, and you are healing up!  Sounds like you had a very busy weekend.   Aren't teens great fun when they are tired and grumpy? LOL!

Just keep taking it easy for awhile, pretty soon you will be back to normal. At least you got the okay for s-x!  

Have a great day!

Lots of love,

Lisa 

((((((((((((((SisterJanica))))))))))Hugs for your continued healing!

   Thank YOU sooooo much for the cup of coffee that you sent to me...It added some joy and love to my day...Thank YOU for thinking of me- that meant so very much to me!

   I'm so glad that things are healing properly and that your appointment went well! YAY to the Heavens!

    It must be a challenge having so many limits put on what you can and can not do...I hope that you follow those rules!<